Spiritual Healing Arts Kirk Kerber

date ?? 2 -08?? posted at myspace blog... A strange pain....and  a better messiah... >>>>>>>> >>> Stare. Staring into the mirror... who is looking back ? ??? I dont know what i look like anymore... an etherial spirit of light gracing the heavens...? A lump of dust...walking toward my next death? evolved -  the enlightend...falling... in a spiraled journey homeward bound... Am I  A sad - desperate, tired consumer, lost in the media mire of self pity and greed and forever wanting??? i look into the mirror and see lost traces... of other lifetimes...pain, incredible joy - sadness... traces...of traveling... wandering... I see the residue of of things I threw away... things that always come back...Ghosts... Nghtly - nightly hauntings... I see a dream,  another life,  a vision - so faded that I hardly recognize what i wanted to be... like a past life.... past lives...people who are gone... reflections - passersby...

Intensive care...its that wonderful time of year again... "Shout hallelujjelia! c'mon get happy... get ready for the judgement day...." the rambling, modern, if not "pornagraphic" streams of: "Leaves of Grass..." or something like it continues... and it's a good sign for me since the "summer of my dis-contnet," is now coming to a close... and now I feel prepared and ready to recant yet another tale of malaise...depression...darkness, that now seems to collide in my soul...spilling out a thousand, hundred, million, billion ? universes...as if the sum total of my "lifetimes" here are being exposed... to myself to the world... stuck forever in a self-evident, self obsession...that really here never quells... Intensive care... the "ego" screams..."I want, I ..want, I want - some more: pain, drama, action, contact - no contact... but most of all..I want death..." the Ego threatens and always brings