"Your Own Private Idaho..."
and the
"Culture of Denail..."
by
kirk...Tv
aka
SEan Bateman...
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I'am gonna be your slege-hammer...tonight...
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and open up your mind...
and release your spirit -
from pain fear doubt and dis-ease...
shakti!!
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good evening mannhattan
this is season three
show 108
get ready to get healed...
manhattan
the world
the universe
and beyond...
its the kirktv "Bonsai"
crash course in
spirituality
metaphysics
and
mysticism 101
excite your friends and family at how mystical and how spiritual you can be and feel totally superior in the process...
tonight were gonna ask you --
to reconsider your ideas and thinking about life, sanity, clarity,
self-esteem
and
mental health and what it truly is...
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its 11-30pm
its channel 57
and its manic
magic
and mystical monday...
do you know where your soul is ??
surround yourself with angels...
if love is the answer then I'll give you some right now...
open your mind and hands...
and spirits--why
b/c I'am giving you some
divine love and
healing...
shakti!!
tonight
were going to ask you -
"What is mental health ??"
"What is madness??"
what is the true definition of insanity ?
and or mental health ?
is socitety becoming so complicated...
that were all realizing were only human
and breaking down...
in the process ??
ask yourself...
Why does our country...
"De-humanize" society...
by
trying to "erase" un-comfortable feelings and emotions...
???
Are emotions like:
sadness...and
anger...
part of the pychic and spiritual journey of life to be experienced just as much as feelings of joy and love
and
trust...
security??
should
processes like grief - and the psychic pain...
of mourning
be eliminated or nuetralized with a pill?
and
what are so-called
"Bad - feelings ??"
vrs
"Good feelings..."
are they totally random...
ideas...
this is good -- this is bad....
are feelings evil ?
are thoughts evil ??
if theres no permission to talk something out then what do you do ??
how can you release crazy thoughts...
what are so called "crazy" thoughts...
look at
galileo...
he thought and insisted the world was round...
and they put him in prison...and on trial...
for hersey....
google it and find out...
joan of Arc...
she said she heard the voice of God....
and they punished her and burned her at the stake...
say your a pyschic and you have visions...
hear vocies...
see things that other people cant see...
like auras or spirits...
are you crazy or do you have ESP...
and your "special..."
??
gifted
as we call it...
what do the terms
denial
detachtment
and projection
and repression
actually mean ??
freee
floating anxiety...?
breakdown like tom petty says...
my mind is healing my body...
my mind is healing my body...
drugs
chemicals
and additives in the air we breathe...
the food we eat and the water we drink...
do these affect us as well...
lets face it :
were a nation of pill poppers and
addicted to being "High"
"Fear and loathing in Las Vegas..."
"Prozac Nation..."
valium
viagra
caffiene
nicotien
speed
sugar
alcohol...
asperatame...
lead
mercury
toxic food...
fear
fear fear...
gimme more
more more...
adreniline junkies...
manic depressive
take a pill to wake up
take a pill to go to sleep...
take a pill to be happy....
can anyone sort it all out....
Today...
it seems like the world and society
and its demands...are a highly pressurized
shame based
denial based...
system
where we are all
asked to conform and yet be somehow extraordinary...
and stand out at the same time...
and
rise above it all...
to become some
beacon of hope and or genius...
and never get lost or stuck....
everyone gets stuck --
trust me on that...
everybosy gets stuck
its built in...
as in the tarot...
the hanged man...
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what are acceptable ways to circumvent the insane culture
we live in - the hyper-sexuality
the fascination with death and violence...
and destruction....
and the insistance
that we all be happy - all the time....
somethings wrong...
but what is that something ??
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can feelings
be worked thru and processed...?
to become part of a persons psychic collage of experience??
or
should all unconfortable -- taboo emotional feelings be medicated with a "cocktail" of psycho-tropic
drugs...
Is so called - "Happiness" the ultimate...
goal of every human beings life ??
what exactly is happiness...?
I ask you -
whats the goal or point of life...?
there are no simple answers it would seem
to the complicated situations we live in...
or
are there...??
is just giving love and acceptance to a person going to heal them...?
why do some people become fragile and "broken" and others become strong and resilliant??
to what happens in their lives...
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why does the psycho-analytic community...
label everything or every behavior
as a "Dis-ease...?
is it
your behavior
-- your thinking
or your feelings that need to be medicated...
and -- or healed...
which way is up ??
where told to be "Noraml" but no one ever gives you a definition of it...so were caught guessing...
all the time...
we have private inner lives
and many personaes...
out lives...a self we show to the world...
then we need to find a "safe" person
to talk it out...
find out if your "ok"...
I'am ok
your ok...
???
what is the normal response to trauma
shock
sudden death of a loved one...
tradgey...
god forbid..murder
disappearance...of a sibling or parent....
??
my mother dis-appeared for 26 years...
when i was 4 years old I saw a man die in a car crash...right in front of me...
it was he and I...
in this park on Easter Sunday...
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is there a god that can make you whole...
and why do we get so
fragmented....??
and or broken....
how do we mend the pyschic-emotional scars we all carry??
can a person be - "restored" to Sanity?
or
do certain depressions clear up and out ?
or are you stuck -- "sick" and crazy
for ever
??
for life never to be healed in gods time ??
can love heal you and whoose to say what love really is...
something you see in a movie??
what is "tough love??"
??
todays mental health definitions seem obscure
murky
non-existant...
or pinned to a moral code of conduct...that nobody can really live up to
rather than an actual....real medical diagnosis...
??
why is this country and the world filled with drug addiction and alcoholism...
??
which I believe is a form of self - destruction...if not slow suicide....
and considered a mental illness...?
every is an addicted and addicted to something...
yes or no
??
does society by its demands of conformity....
and enforcement of un-real expectations...
that you should always be "happy"
and enjoy your life...
and if not there something "wrong" with you...
??
"Not -Normal..."
but what is "Normal..."
you could say that its totally "crazy" the way society makes you try to become something that doesnt even exist....?
then when you can fit the mold or what is right or perfect...then your labeled a freak
an outcast...
strange or weird...
or unwanted...
then certain people are admired
- revered and even worshipped for their ability...to think outside the box...
change and reform...
or behave in ways that wed normally label as crazy
insane....
or
where does authentic behavior come into play...??
do therapists seek to make a person whole or simply cripple them with meds and
put them on spiritual hold...
never addressing the actual source of fear or grief or
psychic - emotional pain ??
does our culture and society...
actually put so much pressure...
on a person that we are all breaking down...
It seems like
society expects prefection....
at every turn...and every
stage of life...
but whoose gonna show us-- what that is and how to do it??
******
we have
situations in our lives which
are extremely complicated...
how can the average "joe" sort it all out...
these are some major questions...
as food for thought...
I ask the questions and open the forum and your mind...
so you can decide...
what really is the truth...
of our lives and the purpose of our existence here...??
why is it called mental health or mental illness when the problem...seems to me emotional...
and spiritual?/
??
is it
emotional
behavioral
mental...
??
if the problem is emotional then does the Fruedian idea of "talk-therapy..."
work -- ??
like you work thru your feelings...??
and get healed in that process ??
to acheieve some kind of peace or closure...??
at peace with life....??
be whole...vrs being fragmented...?
what is happiness and who decides what that definition is ??
many people seek out a menatl health therapist....
when they are in a vunerable -
state of psychic - spiritual
and emotional
pain...
so how do you negociate...
for yourself and advocate for yourself...
to get the support you need...
you have to ask the therapist:
how so you intend on treating me...
at that point you have to remember that:
Your hiring and PAYING them not the other way around....
you have to ask:
questions like --
"are you a fruedian?"
"a behvoirist?"
"a cognitive therapist....?"
are you simply going to medicate me -
label me "sick" because i need to talk it out right now -
and then turn me into some kind of brain dead medi---zombie --
attack of the "medi--Zombies..."
((sounds funny right...like a bad troma-team movie...")))
just because I need to talk to someone...
??
Good evening...
my name is kirk and this is my cable - internet media talk show program....
where we discuss "Alternatives"
and alternative realities and the nature of reality...
trying to find some spiritual truths...
ask some questions to make you think...
I believe:
There is a solution...
The world is botomming out right now on everything...basically...
on its addictions to shame
to fear
to insecurity
to mania
to greed...
corruption...
to sexual and social regidity....that has no true purpose but to try to contol everything....
let go or be dragged as they say...
tonight...
I hope that youll get some pcyhic medicine....
and some healing...
shakti
shakti!!
in order to feel loved and usefull and find your purpose in life...
to become fullfilled and centered and grounded...
and maybe even clear and clean...
clarity
clarity
clarity....
restored to "Sanity..."
and "soundness"
of mind - body and spirit...
ok...
heres a few google searches...for you tonight...
google search:
"what is mental health ??"
"The history of mental illness..."
find out for yourself and ponder...
the questions...
what exactly is a "belief system"
and what are your beliefs...?
is there a probelm with your so called brain or body chemistry...
or does your spiritual condition...
come into play...
can god heal...?
do miracles of healing exist??
without help it is too much for us...
it seems like "fear" permeates every aspect of our lives...
what does the term:
"Normal"
mean?
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normal
average
psychosis
joy
greif
panic...
truth
love...
purity
breathe...
simply breathe...
god is everywhere
or nowwhere...
this crisis
that crisis
a "war" on this - that and the other thing...
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fit in but stand out....
trace it
face it -- replace it and erase it
??
its madness...
right ??
the system is breaking down...
but I believe light will dispell and can heal the insanity that has plagued us...as a species...
remember to get healed and focus on the wholeness and healing - comming into light...
living in trust...
even when it seems you have none...
because its been violated so badly...
what is "Truth...?"
the world is going bankrupt right now...
why ??
is it a spiritual
actual
financial
or emotional breakdown where love brings
healing to
chaos??
look at all the high school girls trying to conform to a body type that doesnt even exist...
they become anorexic
bulimic....
drug addicts...
is self acceptance and love the answer...?
maybe going to a 12th step program to talk it out...
does that work ??
I dont have the answers...
like everything here...
there are norms and extremes...
sometimes society will reward extreme behavior...
and other times
punish
those same behaviors...
is mental health a matter of class and economic status...??
one man is considered "eccentric..."
while the poor man is considered a danger to himself and society...
and to belocked up ?
what is "Temporary insanity "
and is it really temporary...?
do our mental and emotional states ebb and flow...
??
is our happiness contingent on getting what we want...
or acheiving some level of success....
no matter how abusive we are to others
in the process...??
white collar crime vers blue collar crimes...??
we are being forced to address things like this is our society...
over dramatization
media-saturation...
the right vrs the left...
lies and scandals...
there are no easy answers....
??
intake
assimilation
elimination...
society right now is having to confront its darker side...and its all coming to light...
the fear within...
right ??
How do we do that and make the transition to integration and or wholeness....
???
can a fragmented person heal another fragmented person...
Does the psycho-theraputic
community even care if your healed...and freed...? or do they have an investment in you being controlled - stigmatized...
and labeled forever
crazy...
for their own selfish means...
????
are therapists the sickest f**ks of all ??
promoting sadist
ideas...and practices...
and providing no answers...
to the situation they created in the first place...
that everything and everyone is somehow mental ill or dis-eased...
???????
?
that just being alive is a mental-illness...
??
right ?
(so) theres alot of unanswered questions...
it seems to me like mental health is dictated by some some unknown factors...by some group of people that label everything
"dis-eased..."
and every behavior can be labeled as
"dis-seased..."
whats the differnece between maverick behavior...
authentic behavior...
and unaccpetable...
modes of behavior...and who sets the standard...?
what does it mean --
to be "toxic..."
???
emotionally toxic...
like:
"your Toxic man..."
toxic
nuerotic
self will run riot....
when instincts exceed their function...
you become
off center...
right ?
are our ideas about "God" - Religion and politics so rigid that we have to become addicts in order to survive
??
the pressure is way
way too much...
what if the ideas out there...that you perform and exist in a certain "manner..."
actually make us toxic and fill us full of shame and guilt...
when in reality...
simply being human
is to be in a state of pain fear joy and sadness
?
suppression
?
regression
?
"De-pression?"
once you get depressed will you
always be that way...
??
and what about simply just being afraid of being "struck" mentally ill at any moment...
you just wake up one day and your crazy ??
???
and you cant get out of ??
once again...
What is the psyche??
Is that question even a valid one...?
words like
"Break-down..."
"he lost it..."
"He just snapped under the pressure..."
"she went Postal...."
"the Razors Edge..."
"The Lunatic Fringe..."
"
I'am just asking the questions...
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ok man heres a list of movies...
I comprised...
that deal with the subjects....
of mental illness...
addiction
grief
incest
sexual abuse...
alcoholism and the so called "Catch 22"
that we all live with....
you have to be crazy --
crazy like a fox....
or lead a double life...
to succeed....
right ?
Like a "Jekall and Hyde..."
??
I also suggest that you consider...
asking what is the "Emotionally" healthy response or behavior...
that is expected....
in any given situation ??
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feelings -- emotions --
it seems to me are the exhuat system of the mind and body....
and are there actually "Good" therapists out there that can heal...you
and liberate you and free you from the mental state you seem to be
stuck in ??
ok:
chk these out....
Movies that deal with mental illness...being stuck
addiction and or
spirituality...that address the questions of our time...
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please try to remember that I believe that everything is inter-related...
and inter-connected...
mind and body and spirit....
and the goal is to "heal..."
to become centered and whole and at peace....
***
everyone has been "Alienated..."
and we all had the same child-hood...
so with that in mind...
get a pen and some paper and write them down...
heres my top picks...
for films that ponder...
and ask what is mental illness or health...
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Whats really the Game of Life?
how do you win...
get all the money and the beach house....and get free...
or is that even the right thinking ??
or question...?
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dont ask
dont talk
dont tell
dont feel...
thing is not working....
Denial....
we live in a "culture of denial..."
is producing...
a society...that hides and lies...
in order to
satisfy our sick and sometimes toxic...
egos...???
Is society falling apart or finally acknowledging...
it's darkness...and integrated its alienated aspects...?
you decide...
the truth will set us free...?
god help us all...
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ok man --
the lines are now open to call in and tell me what you think....
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kirk's top film pick...
are:
heavenly creatures
Catch 22
One flew over the cukoos nest
Girl Interrrupted
Prozac Nation
running with Scissors...
whoose Afraid of Virginia Wolf...
What ever happened to Baby Jane??
Nuts
Cat on a hot Tin Roof
sling-Blade
(no more wire hangars...!!)
Mommy Dearest...
The glass Menagerie...
Traffic
American Psycho
sunset Boulevard
Requim for a Dream
((heres some more obsure..titles as well...@
Some Great Films About Mental Illness
mentalhealthworld.org...))
the snake pit...1948
fear strikes out 1957
A hard to find title...
"Titicut Follies...1967
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I heard the memrmaids singing...
crash
videodrome
city of Zombies
Dark City
Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas
Leaving Las Vegas...
K--Pax
Looking for Mr. Good-bar
and
Your Own Private Idaho....
(ala: Sarah Palin...)
add to the list....
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